Why must I take yet another tired breath?

I really look forward to a sudden death

Depressed, I will rummage in the fridge

While I visualize leaping from a bridge

The darkness really makes me want to cry

I usually want to give up before I even try

Why must I always feel that life is so bad?

Day after day my moods are simply so sad

“Why go on living?” I often hear myself say

Before enduring yet another meaningless day

The road of life may come to a happy bend

But for now I still long for my life to just end

Some say “you are constantly complaining”

But wanting life just seems to be so draining

With courage, I decided to finally take action

My failed suicide attempt equalled traction

If you really want to have no wind in your sail

Attempt to kill yourself and then have it fail

Some people are glad that I am not yet dead

“Many wonderful times for us are still ahead”

I am still not quite sure if they could be right

But sometimes the future does seem bright

I then began to wonder if the secret to living

Was to reap the benefits of emotional giving

I found one of the happiest moments must be

Meeting people battling depression just like me

Our parents differ but we are sisters and brothers

Talk to me so I can then introduce some others

If you let people see what is stored on the inside

You are a friendly person for them to confide

Often battling similar problems then and now

Maybe together we can each discover the how

Life seems to be cutting quite close to the bone?

It is tough enough without trying to do it alone.

…Jude Swanson